Today was a pretty rough situation for me in terms of self confidence in performance based actions. While watching the other dancers performing, I had a battle to overcome my self conscience to be able to just enjoy and observe the wonderful performances going on. But in turn, that also helped me to motivate myself to figure out how I can create performance that I can actually complete it in a way that I can be satisfied with. And in order to do this, I then moved towards movement rather than thought, which is a new experience. And what I found allowed me to do that is cycles. Turning and moving in the purity of the word. But still, there is something strange about writing about the concept of cycles, circles in this context and in my situation at the moment.